I just want to write again...

Assalamu'alaikum wbt..

I missed the old days..
maybe that's why i went through my old entries.. and read it again.
I don't have the talent to write actually;
People will think it's a crap, but that's okay.
Cause I just want to write again..

I just like to read through my old memories,
Here, it's not much but it's alright.
Cause I just want to write again..

There's a million bloggers with cool entries, good words, great experience and many followers..
But me, i don't care.. i was being me..
People would not appreciate it but that's fine.
Cause i just want to write again..

Because all this awhile..
                          I just want to write again....

Rocking Sunday with Rock Climbing

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Waaaarghh.. aku sebenarnya teringin mo update entry ni. Tapi aku sendiri pun tak paham otak ni terlalu malas mo 'brain' words, yah, mengarang sangat la bukan hobiku-suda tau tapi masih jugak ada hati mo blogging kannnn... ciss!!

Ahad lalu-lalu..aku tak tau la berapa lama punya lalu kan. Me and si bebeh (jenn) went to rock climbing.

Wahh!! lama suda terniat mo try ni barang sebenarnya, baru la sekarang berkesempatan.. pergh..looser gila. 

So tempat ni adalah Sabah Indoor Climbing Centre (SICC) bertempat di Taman Cabaran Belia, Kompleks Sukan Likas, Kota Kinabalu Sabah.

Tempat ni tak la besar sangat tapi just nice la.. cukup2.. memang tak ternaik semua pun so tak payah kerek sangat yerr nak beso2-wall tinggi melangit bagai.. 

Anak dia takut mo turun sebab trauma dari sebelumnya.. tali dia terpusing.
So bapanya tengah berusaha tuk pujuk anak dia.
ni tourist dari france, ispiking french diatas tu.
rasa macam tengok french movie la pulak.. heheh!
Drama~ Drama~...

This is me!! (yang baju merah)

Si bebeh Jenn.. ok oo~..

Fulamak!! Paling favorite ni gambar..
macam spiderman pla ku rasa sini..ekeke

So bayarannya macam ni..

Pendaftaran+Belay = RM22

Tanpa Belay = RM17

What is belay??

Perhatikan gambar diatas.. orang yang pegang tali kita dekat bawah tu la 'belayer'.

pegang tu bukan suka2, ada caranya.. kena masuk belaying class dulu.. belajar cara ikat tali, tahan weight orang atas tu. 

P/S: Bah, apa lagi.. aktiviti ni sangat la syiuk, tapi sakit tangan la.. Marilah kita melasakkan diri!!

       Latersssss~..........

Al-fatihah Gramps.. Forever I love U!!!

Assalamualaikum wbt...


'September 13th 2013' One of the historical and memorial day for me and the whole family..
Al-Fatihah to gramps- 'Allahyarham Ahmad Ayid'

The saddest part is i wasn't there at his last breath. I got informed earlier by my brother that gramps is critical but i was at a meeting. I was thinking to finish my meeting first then go to the hospital. See these kind of thing already happened a lot and got us rushing there only to know that he's gonna be alright. So i thought this time it would be the same.

Just as i finished my meeting, i had to send my colleague back to the office. While I'm on the road, my brother keep calling me on the phone saying to come now-gramps is critical..

Calmly i drove... 2mins after, bro called again. This time i sense something weird, he talked a bit then he choked- he tried to speak but the words won't come out. Still i drove- holding my breath and hung up. All i can think of is i had to send off my colleague first. 1min after, bro calling in again.. still he choked and went silent-that's when i heard sounds of people crying and mourning.

My heart's pounding, i'm sweating, i lost my breath for few sec.. I couldn't speak, the words just stuck on my throat. All i remember saying that telling them to hold on, i'm coming..just hold on for a sec. That time, I wish i could tell gramps to hold on, wait for me-don't leave- but that just my heart saying.

I would try to be strong and tough but the tears kept on running down my cheeks. I figure that i can't break down, I'm gonna see him in just a mile away- I mean i had to hold on.. i just had to..

I arrived, finally.. with all the nerves and courage i step in the room. I could see everyone's crying.
And there was my gramps, lying on the bed-breathless... i couldn't dare to touched or try to speak to him, i just stood there *end of the bed* and i just watched him. With tears flowing down-I just watched..

We took the body back to hometown "tawau" and have him buried safely in our family cemetery that afternoon. Thank god that everything went smooth.

At gramp's grave

Raya 2010

With his naughty grandchild

Kundasang Trip with us

P/S: From the bottom of my heart, I love this man to death.. Forever I Love You gramps.. We felt your absence though we accepted the fact that you're no longer here. Allah knows best.. You'll remain in our hearts and soul. Alfatihah..may you rest in peace. Amiinnn~...

The Elevator Troll

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

For uol's info, i've been a nurse taking care of my gramps a.k.a Mr.Commander at the SMC hospital like almost every night having shifts with my bro n cuzzy. It's been for like a month now, well, gramps is on schedule medical so once in a while he will be admit to the hospital for quite a period.

Yesterday morning after i went off to work, gramps feels like he wants to have a wee, decides to walk by himself and end up his face on the floor, resulting his right leg bone to dislocated/fractured (Not quite sure yet).

Doctor have him checked every morning..
See, his leg is attached with 5kg weight to pull the bone back.. Poor gramps~..

Ok, so this is the real part..

Last night, i was in the hospital elevator on my way up to his room. With me in the elevator is another person, when he reach to his floor, he walks out.

Now you see, i was alone in the elevator. When suddenly i got this silly idea, so I pretended talking to someone when actually there's no one around, just to troll with the cctv.

Imagining their curious face all looking to each other, then tries to rewind the camera footage several times to make sure what's really happening and got all horrored. THAT would be funny..i giggled myself  thinking in my mind that time.

Having quite a serious conversation myself until it felt so real i started to have goosebumps.

Imagine when u're alone in a hospital elevator, it was as if someone's around and i can't believe i'm doing this crazy idea of mine. My eyes began scrolling to the elevator scale.. still haven't reach my floor yet. Then i silent myself facing the door, just the door.. i don't even dare to look back. Hoping that the door would open quick.

Finally..Finally i reached my floor, the door opens, i relief.. but once again my brain function abnormally.. i turn around, gave a strong nod some more and leave. Stepping out the elevator with my cold feet hoping and hopping that That someone wouldn't be following me.

But in the end, it's all good.. slept well, nothing horror happen so far.

Imagine if this happens, what would u do??
faint? stif? cry?  u wouldn't know the feeling until u feel it urself

p/s: #FactAboutMe : I have this reflex habit that always response against my instict. *aiseh trip twitter pla main hashtag segala.. heheh! Laters~...

Cara Mengorat Lelaki Pemalu..meow~

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Sifat Malu selalunya dikaitkan ngan perempuan, tapi zaman sekarang ni kebanyakan perempuan lebih terbuka dan sikit agresif, Fuiyooo!! Normalnya, lelaki yang macho suka perempuan yang sweet2 jek tapi macam mana la pulak ngan gadis agresif dan lasak? maka, disini  la peranan harus dimainkan oleh seorang..Lelaki Pemalu!! *hahahaa.. ok, itu memang xbetul.. 

Lelaki pemalu ni kan, dia ni jenis yang nda amik perhatian sangat ngan perempuan. Dia suka buat hal sendiri, tapi kalau sekali dia tertarik, anda lah satu2nya. Bukanlah berita baik sangat kalau lelaki pemalu tertarik ngan anda si gadis, sebab mereka ni susah untuk luahkan perasaan. 

Ok, so aku selaku gadis lasak dan agresif mengakui yang aku ni memang tertarik ngan lelaki lembut (bukan auww ok! just soft spoken) and pemalu. Oleh sebab lelaki pemalu ni adalah makhluk yang pemalu, si gadis haruslah pandai memikat si lelaki. Bukanlah suruh perigi cari timba, just try to approach that leads into making a sign and make a stand to be noticed. Namun begitu, caranya haruslah betul dan halusssss~ *pitching tinggi pada hujung sin...'s'..'s' *

Aku jumpa ni artikel, ingat mau share2 skit tentang..

Cara Memikat Hati Seorang Lelaki Pemalu.. boleh ba kan.. boleh ba kalau aku~..huhu

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1. Sensitif

Cara pertama untuk memikat hati jejaka pemalu adalah dengan bersikap lebih sensitif. Sesetengah lelaki sukakan wanita yang agresif, tapi untuk jejaka pemalu, si gadis perlu lebih peka terhadap perasaan si jejaka. Jika terlalu mendesak, kemungkinan anda hanya menakutkan si dia. Perlahan-lahan tonjolkan diri anda dan anda bakal mendapat respon yang baik.

2. Bersikap Comel Dan Manis

Cara lain untuk memikat si dia adalah dengan bersikap secomel mungkin. Cuba latih diri anda untuk bersikap pura-pura malu walaupun anda adalah seorang yang sangat terbuka. Sensasikan dirinya dengan kiriman coklat dan bunga dan cuba untuk tersenyum simpul di hadapannya. Percayalah, taktik ini benar-benar mujarab untuk memikat si dia yang pemalu.

3. Bersikap Ramah

Sesetengah lelaki menyukai gadis yang tidak terlalu ‘sweet’ ataupun peramah, namun untuk kategori lelaki pemalu, mereka sebenarnya mencari gadis yang boleh dijadikan rakan. Cuba lah bersikap ramah dan bercakap dengannya apa jua topik semasa. Dari situ, anda akan jumpa persamaan diri masing-masing.

4. Jangan Gelojoh

Ingat bahawa jejaka pemalu tidak sukakan gadis yang terlalu mendesak dan agresif. Perlahan-lahan mengambil hati mereka ya. Memang benar gadis perlu mengambil langkah pertama tapi selepas itu perlahankan langkah anda, jadikan ia lebih semulajadi.

5. Kenali Si Dia

Apa sebenarnya yang jejaka pemalu inginkan? Ia tidak lain adalah mempunyai gadis yang ingin mengenali jiwa mereka. Jika anda mahukan cara terbaik memikat mereka, mulakan dengan langkah pertama bertanyakan tentang pelajarannya, kerjaya, keluarga dan apa yang mereka sukai di masa lapang. Percayalah, mereka sangat menyukai gadis yang bertanyakan hal mereka walaupun mereka nampak malu pada permulaan bicara. Usik sedikit dirinya secara sopan, nescaya dia lebih sukakan diri anda.

6. Pujilah Si Dia

Semua lelaki sukakan pujian. Seperti mana wanita, semua jejaka gemarkan wanita yang menyukai dirinya memberikan pujian. Mulakan dengan pujian yang lebih mudah contohnya anda sukakan warna baju atau fesyen terbaru rambutnya. Untuk yang lebih berani, puji bentuk tubuhnya. Pujian adalah kunci kepada hati lelaki!

7. Lakukan Secara Lembut

Apabila anda berurusan dengan lelaki yang benar-benar malu, salah satu cara untuk memikat si dia adalah lakukan semua perkara dengan secara lembut. Jadilah gadis yang mudah didekati, sentuh hatinya secara lembut dan halus dengan membiarkan dia tahu bahawa anda suka dia!

8. Gerak Bahasa Tubuh

Perhatikan bahasa tubuhnya adakah si jejaka benar-benar bertindak balas dan suka dengan usaha anda selama memikat si dia. Adakah dia mula memikat anda kembali? Mata anda selalu bertentangan? Jika ya, inilah tanda si dia mula memberi ruang kepada anda. Jika tidak, anda harus cuba lagi ya!

9. Bersikap Kelakar

Bila anda cuba memikat si jejaka pemalu, pastikan anda mempunyai personaliti yang benar menarik hati si dia. Anda boleh menjadi seorang yang kelakar dan usiklah si dia asalkan tidak sampai memalukannya. Ini mungkin boleh melegakan ketegangan di dalam dirinya.

Memikat jejaka pemalu tidaklah semudah memikat jejaka kebanyakan. Anda mungkin mahu main sedikit sehingga permainan, samada menjadikan diri anda lebih mudah didekati atau mendekati dia! Jadi wanita, jika ada jejaka pemalu dalam fikiran anda yang anda minati sekian lama, ayuh lakukan sekarang!

kredit : Nota Hati

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 P/S: Tapi please please jangan terlalu agresif bila mendekati lelaki pemalu, ni akan buat diorang rasa takut dan akan mengelak anda wahai si gadis Nakal! hahaaa.. 

A Letter To You

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Dear Yung,

We met in an almost unexpected way, unexpected move from you in an unexpected time with that very very unexpected feelings.
My insecurity, my pride, my ego kept on pushing you away but instead, you never left.
Your patience, your persistence, your unconditionally love for me..
Accepting whatever i was, however i am, whoever i'd be..
Thank you for that.. i am very much thankful to god for giving me something this big.

But this is me after all.. i am incapable of love, to love, even to show love
I bring nothing but pain..

I'm sorry that i am such a damage and i'm messed up.
The fault is mine and i'm the mistake

If you ever read this..i just want you to know..
Remember what i said once before? i meant it, i still am..
I would be stupid to let you go,
But I'd be selfish of asking you to stay..

Find your happiness..

Happy 2nd Anniversary love.. supposely..



p/s: I'm sorry~..

Lesson learned!!

Assalamualaikum wbt

It's funny how we always hope that life would happen perfectly just like what we dreamed of even though we practically know that it doesn't, might even be totally opposites.

Greed..When we have all the thing in the world but we are so ungrateful that we start demanding more (thinking that you deserve more).

Confusion and Indenial.. confuse by what we feel, to feel or not to feel is something that we ourselves never have the power to fight nor to ignore.

Guilt.. afraid of hurting a heart but at the same time scare of losing.

SHE has been in a relationship that haunts her with all kinds of those.
She felt it but still she ignored her instinct at first thinking that it would be a good idea if she could at least give it a try.
What really happen is when we give a relationship too many reasons to start, then there's always too many reasons for it to end. Everything seems to be an excuses to consider even to judge.
SHE is someone that would questions everything..in her mind. The sounds of her ego shuts her from speak out her mind.

She is greed of his attention, greed of his care, greed of claiming what's hers.. but the problem seems to be she never requested it out, too proud to admit.
She's confused to what she really feels towards him, is it love? or is it just a sympathy..
Worst, always second thought of their status, whether to hold on or let it go
But the guilt.. either both ways will hurt him.

However, she knows she has to make a decision so she made it...

"Life is not cruel, we chose it to be"

A letter to him says:
'After all this time, you're still a best thing that ever happen to me.. i mean it'


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Creativity is an ART!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

ART!! can be anything.. lukisan, fesyen, perhiasan, etc..
Aku ni bukan lah tergolong dalam kalangan orang yang berseni.. itu aku akui. Tapi tiap kali aku lihat benda2 yang berseni ni aku akan jadi teruja.. melompat2 keterujaan? err, nda la kalik.
Yang buat aku nda puas hati kan, i could thing of a lot of creative things in my mind namun sebiji buah kurma pun aku nda mampu tuk terjemahkannya into something we called ART. Ihh!

Tapi apa pun aku try, aku try...
Ingin mengembangkan kekreatifan minda, maka kita biasakan la otak ni bekerja secara kreatif.

My first attempt.. simple ja kan..
boleh la kot.. just tuk hias2 brg2 atas meja.. klu ada masa la.

Haritu aku shopping la sikit2 brg tuk hias2 ni kan like shiny paper, marker, some fabric.. tp fabric ni agak susah jgk la mo cari, ada pun corak design dia sangat limited... well, i prefer unic design pattern ya know.
So ni starting2 ni, baru start enjin.. race minyak pun belum lg taw.. huhu
Kalau boleh, sekali ngan kereta n bilik tidur aku mo hias, i've pictured it in my mind (walaupun aku tau agak costy..sangat!!)  it's going to be lots of fun anyway!! ^^

Al-Fatihah my comrade..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Besides hari2 yg sangat busy beberapa minggu yang lepas ni di ofis, on 17th Feb, one of my office mate died in a car crash .. Innalillah~

I had a call that morning from my other office mate saying that 'arwah' just passed away that morning.. I was shocked and almost couldn't believe the news. Quickly i went on facebook and directly to his profile.. my heart beats and breaks a little when i saw all the condolence posts from his friends.. Yes, it was true, he died~...

We went to the forensic department as his body was taken for a Postmorterm. After a long wait we finally manage to see him for the one last time. It was tense..it was heart breaking.. it was all that, i feel like, how we  just met but we're already that close.. how everything was just fine the day before.. how i've listen to his sadness and also his life resolutions, there's so much he wanted to prove in his life to everyone and especially to the person that hurts him whom he loved so much.

Arwah Nickson Bin Ladja

Rest In Peace mate.. semoga arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang yg beriman. Setiap yg hidup pasti akan mati, Inna lillah hi wa'inna ilahi rajiun (dari Allh kita datang, kepada Allah jua kita kembali)

Membuatkan aku berfikir sejenak. Kita xtau bila ajal kita, langsung, we'll never see it coming. So dengan kesempatan yg masih ada ni, sama2lah kita sentiasa bersedia.. YOLO, Ofcourse.. so don't waste it, do something good and useful to 'dunya' and 'jannah'.

p/s: For favor, whoever read this entry, sila sedekahkan Al-fatihah tuk arwah.. tq.

Terima Kasih Yang Maha Esa!!

Assalamualaikum wbt~..


heyho!!
Mungkin buat masa ni agak payah tuk aku update blog ni sejak aku sudah masuk ke alam pekerjaan ni. Well, I'm a career lady now ehem2.. heheh! So aku ni tengah belajar cope up dgn dunia ni. So many things to learn and seriously penatnya nda sama cam alam student dulu.
My life is merely dedicated to work. I mean, siang kerja whole day then malam berehat just tuk kerja esok hari.. I know we should have a balance between work and personal stuff. I do, but it's way tiring.. maybe i'm not used to it yet somehow, but i'm trying my best..err i think.

So sekarang ni genap la sebulan aku bekerja, bingung jugak la.. Bukan apa, since aku masih fresh grad ni kan maka banyak benda aku perlu belajar sampai xtau mana yang  mau start dulu.. ok i know, pelan2 org bilang, As-sobaru min al-iman (sabar itu separuh daripada iman) Wow, ustajah!!
But one thing i learned and hope that i can bare in mind is that, bila kita buat sesuatu kerja tu kena ikhlas. Despite how small the job that you might think it looks ridiculous, or even how hard the task is and it doesn't even pay off  like how you've expected it to be.. just know this, Allah pays you a lot more than human does in a way that you can never imagine nor even notice.
I am practicing myself...
* To be honest with every little thing i do
* To be patient in learning and even towards other people behavior
* To be responsible for the task i've been assigned to
* Not to nag when going through the difficulty
* Always be thankful to Allah with all the things i got even to the slightest thing in return
* To be tough and strong when dealing with any complications

I solemnly wish and i hope the best for my life.. harap2 la semua yang aku kerjakan dan lakukan memperoleh keberkatan dari Allah S.W.T sebab orang bilang bila kita buat sesuatu dengan ikhlas, rezeki kita ndakan pernah putus Insyaallah. Amiiiinnn~....

My first month salary.. apa perasaan? terkejut tiba2 ada duit banyak sekali masuk..
My own money!! weeeee~

p/s: Berusaha tuk menjadi hebat.. maju dan terus maju.. once i'm up, i never wanna come down!!

Life is sometimes a sweet movie scene..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Like in the korean movies, the sweet scene always excites us..
I'm sure the ladies would agree that there's a time when we watch a movie then when a sweet scene came up and we all go 'aaaaaaaaa' with a high pitch sound. Did we.. DID WE?!
Well to the girls out there.. admit it. We all have those thoughts or imaginations that dreamed to live those sweet scenes just like in movies especially korean movies.. am i right??

Who says that a sweet and romantic scene only happens in movies and we can't have it in real life??
IT DOES!! believe me.. just that it seldomly happens or maybe only to the lucky ones..
However, each response is subjective depends on peoples view.. some girls get flattered by the sweetness,  but some girls are not even aware of the situation..na'a

Well whatever it is.. when i think about it, i have..yes, i actually have been flattered by some scene..
But it amused me how sucks my responses are.. i can be so ignorant and certainly obtuse when dealing with this kinds of situation.


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Here's some scenes that stuck in my head somehow..

# There's this time i went out with this guy, it was raining. We ran to the bustop for shelter and my bottom jeans got wet. I sat on the bench then he came.. he bent down on his knees and fold up my jeans up. Heee, i feel like a kid.

# I kinda like when someone pat my head.. (same age or older than me of course coz it would be disrespectful for a kid to pat). Well, there's a friend of mine like to pat my head. i would agree i'm kinda like a cat. ^_^

# We were walking under a hot sun, i was sweating excessively. My friend then wiped my sweat by using just his hands. I understand other people would probably disgust with someone else's sweat, I myself feels the same by my own sweat. it's surprising that he's ok with it.. That could be euwy, but he made it sweet.. heee

# We were sitting facing each other, i was busy analyzing photos from the camera. All of sudden i quickly glance up, he was staring at me deep with a very complicating look. But my reflex takes less than a second for me to glance back down, and so i did the poker face No Feeling AT ALL!!  (I think it should be sweet if   i can actually respond well to it) I am the Iron Man!! erkk~..

# One scene that i felt kinda sweet but more like funny when we meet secretly without my mom's knowledge. I was helping my mom with her store (shop), so i'm standing outside infront of the store while my mom's inside and that's when he came. He was at the next block and we were signaling each other afraid that my mom would notice. I rest on the wall, we were next to each other with the wall in between us and we were chatting quietly and trying hard not making it obvious. (psst~, i feel... CHOMEL~...heheh!)


Okay, i think that all be it. Well, it's the least i can remember so far..
That's just it, what? did you guys expect more?? then keep disappointing coz my life is all PG13.. that is all i got for ya bitchesssss~ (ehem excuse the expression)


p/s: Looking forward for another sweetest sinn scene..ait? ehehe...

Vacay Vacay Malaysia

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Last weekend i spent my days on a vacay trip with my family..
ada keluarga dari labuan datang melawat.. so kami bawa jalan2 pegi lahad datu & semporna , on road..
Aku diberi penghormatan tuk drive perjalanan selama 4jam ke Felda Sahabat Beach Resort Lahad Datu.. *even though i'm still a 'P' holder license.... hmm penghormatan la sangat, such tiring since i have to do all the jobs such as other than as a driver, i'm also a nurse of my grandpa slash lift bags and stuffs slash manage everything and taking orders. Why it's all on me?? well that's what you get when you're on a vacation with bunch of old people and small kids and you are the only one that they can rely on.
yess!! it's Damn tired (excuse the expression).

It's a shame i don't have the pictures at Lahad Datu.. U know laa, manada orang tolong gambar. Ni kerja orang2 muda ja ni snap2 sana sini.. well since orang muda yang ni busy playing an important responsibility role and all. So yang ada at floating, semporna ja lah.. tu pun tak banyak.. duhh~ lemah!

One of the spot at aquarium, floating

Meet my beloved grandpa..
 kesian dia kena kerah jalan di jambatan floating yang agak panjang nih..
sampai hampus2 dia.. hahaa

me n umi..

Apa yang best di semporna ni adalah makanan seafood dia.. berlambak, senang dapat, murah & fresh2!!
so kalau rasa2 mengidam makan ketam ka udang ka, tempat lain mahal ni dek.. Oleh itu semporna la tempatnya..JOM JOM SEMPORNA!!! :)


P/S: tempat floating ni dulu memang sangat cantik, lautnya yang biru dan bersih.. tapi sekarang ni, kecewa sangat sebab kebersihan tempat ni kurang terjaga. It's such a devastating to see once so beautiful nature has been polluted in such ways. 

The SFS in our daily food

Assamualaikum wbt~..

Harini aku teringin pla buat entry pasal kesihatan, sekali sekala kita kongsi bahan2 berguna kan bagus..Yalaa, daripada aku asek cerita pasal diri sendiri *SS* biasa laa, penyakit self obsession kan..

So tau ka apa tu SFS?? SFS stands for Sugar Fat & Salt contain in our daily food taken..
sedar atau xsedar *sebenarnya pura2 xsedar*, makanan yang kita ambil mempunyai kandungan SFS tersembunyi.
Setiap hari kita bantai ja makanan sesuka hati. Well did you ever think of how many amounts of this SFS could stacked up in your body?? As positive it is to the needs of our body, there is a chance of negative effect when it is over consumed.

Haritu aku jalan2 di Suria Sabah hypermall.. jabatan kesihatan buat health event di tingkat 1, banyak la booth2 kesihatan. Yang paling aku fevret sekali part makanan or minuman free.. dari susu segar, hoko, sampai la yogurt, semua aku bantai sambil berjalan2 ngan muka gembira.

Berjalan dari 1booth ke booth yang lain.. tiba2 nampak benda chomel..

Wow, kali ni terpaksa la letak gambar besar2 skit..kalau kecik xnampk pla nanti. Dah la tulisan kecik, ni lagi camera ni rabun2 cam tuannya jgk.hee
Apa2pun aku rasa benda ni sangat kiuttttt!!!
Selain kiut, benda ni sangat menginsafkan diriku tuk jaga pemakanan, melihatnya aku sangat berasa simpati terhadap badan ku.



p/s: Jangan pura2 xtau SFS adalah punca kepada pelbagai penyakit.. so sila la jaga pemakan anda ya! paling penting jaga sistem penghadaman badan. Badan sihat, Minda sihat, Jiwa sihat!!! 

My Convocation Day!!! weeee~..

Assalamualaikum wbt~...

Three moments yang paling bahagia buat ibubapa kita.. Satu, disaat kita baru dilahirkan.. Kedua, disaat selesai menamatkan pelajaran. Ketiga, dihari perkahwinan kita.
Zon aku ni masi lg diperingkat kedua.. yepp, 21 Oktober 2012 yakni bersamaan dengan 5 Zulhijjah..
Tercipta lah satu sejarah dimana aku telah pun selesai mengerjakan haji eh! *amin..* menamatkan pembelajaran ku secara sahnya dihari graduasi ku..aiseh cam pelik pla kalau dalam BM.. 'Convocation' bha..

So Wehihiiiiiii~.. I am Officially GRAD uol's!!! Excited gilerrr~ ^^'
One week before the convocation, aku turun UMS tuk urus jubah konvo n everything yang berkaitan.
A day before the convocation, we had a studio photoshoot at Asia City.. ambik awal supaya nda pack nanti.

Aku yang skema

Selesai dengan hari sesi fotografi...

Hari yang ditunggu-tunggu.. 'The Convocation Day'

peace kacang peace v(^_^)v

Nur Fatin Azieana Marsidi aka Slaium Vox.. ehehe

I'm on the screen yaw!!! terasa femes seketika..auww

Ze Famili~

Me n umi

 Me n big bro..

Me n sis

Me n abah

Me n bro..

I'm officially grad sir!!!

p/s: Convocation suda lepas, sekarang cari karaja busssss!!!

malaaaassssssss~... -_-'

All the best SHOs!!!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Minggu lalu adalah hari terakhir kursus untuk Safety and Health Officer (SHO) dari NIOSH..

selama 22hari ni banyak yang aku dapat selain makan sedap2 3kali sehari..huhu.. yang tu memang tiptop!

33orang sekelas dengan pelbagai background dan ragam, banyak input yang aku serap.

Walaupun kelas ni agak pack jgk, bayangkan la dalam masa 22hari tu semua ilmu kena sumbat masuk dalam kepala.. sama jugak la macam zaman2 belajar dulu, tapi benda ni lebih menyeluruh even diluar bidang background study ku. Apa-apapun aku percaya pelahan2 kalau ditambah dengan sedikit pengalaman bila dapat kerja nanti, semuanya akan selamat.. i mean tuk dapat Green Book  for 'SHO qualification' mesti pass exam. So harap2 la aku dapat bertahan dalam bidang ni dalam masa yang sama masih mampu melibatkan diri ngan bidang aku (civil engineer).

Introducing.. The SHOs..
yang ni masa buat site visit construction site dekat waterfront

Walau dalam masa yang singkat dengan hanya 22hari seja kami duduk bersama dalam satu kelas, tapi kami ni kira rapat suda.. macam mana jugak  kalau suda hari2 jumpa muka yang sama ja kan. heheh

Dalam banyak2 kelas, kelas ni la aku rasa yang paling efektif dan 'fun'.. macam2 gaya dan ragam. 1hari dalam kelas xlepas ketawa fullblast mcm setan gilaa.. hahaaa

Semua pun satu kepala.. yang bestnya, malam2 dorang ni rajin betul keluar main futsal, lepak2.. maka esoknya ada kelas, datang kelas muka stim *mengantuk k jangan salah faham.

Tapi bak kata solomon (paling feveret ne dalam kelas).. "setiap pertemuan pasti ada perpisahan"

Masa 22hari suda tamat, rasa macam sekejap seja masa berlalu. sedih o wuwuuu~.. ekeke

Ni la kek kami tuk 'last day ceremony'
member kelas ni 'zika' yang buat ni.. sedap! i like~..hehe

Potong kek time~...  :)

Kami budak baik.. hehee

Kehuru-haraan diluar pejabat masa menunggu bas tuk site visit

Tempat melepak sepanjang zaman aka Zon Merokok..
Disini la tempat pujaan bila break time or  boring2 mengantuk dalam kelas

This is US!! include jgk aku yg rajin menonton game dorang ni walaupun ayam2..heheh!

Seminggu suda berlalu sejak kursus ni habis, sekarang hati terasa kosong. Rindu gila2 rindu.... sekarang xdapat la sudah makan sedap2 3kali sehari.. huhu.. tapi yang paling dirindu budak2 kelas kursus ni & suasana kelas.. best best sangat best!! *First time masuk kelas tanpa stress.. muahaha

Dengan tamatnya kursus ni, kami dapat sijil kehadiran.. 1step for the SHO, 2nd step is to pass the exams and 3rd is to gain experience to get the green book (GB) and there you go, SHO officially bebeh!!
So dengan ini, harapanku kepada budak2 kelas ni or so called *bakal* SHOs 'All the best and Goodluck!!'
Jadilah SHO yang bertanggugjawab.. as our principle says...

"NEVER COMPROMISE SAFETY!!"

CauCinCau!!

Escape The Friend Zone

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Hari ni aku mo cakap pasal "friend zone"...
For those who don't know the term, "friend zone".. it refers to a situation where one individual in a friendship develops more intense feelings and wants to become more than friends with the other person. And selalunya, the other person is unaware of the friend's desires and quite happy in the friendship-only arrangement. As a result, the person is stuck in the "friend zone", unable to transition from just friend to girlfriend or boyfriend.
Yah, ini cerita sangat sedih :( wuwuu~..

So we go back to the topic on "how to escape the friendzone"...

1) Break the "nice guy" or "sweet girl" stereotype.

ok kebanyakannya c jejaka atau c gadis  yang selalu caught up dalam "friendzone" ni biasanya yang mempunyai ciri2 "nice guy" or "sweet girl". Sebab biasanya orang begini, diorang kalau boleh tidak mahu membuatkan suasana jadi tak selesa diantara mereka berdua dan lebih prefer tuk simpan sendiri rather to communicate their own needs. Dalam erti kata lain, kamu ni menyimpan perasaan tapi tak sanggup tuk luahkannya sebab tidak mahu beri tekanan kepada orang tu atau takut hubungan persahabatan akan terjejas. Sikap kamu yang mendahulukan perasaan orang lain daripada perasaan sendiri seolah-olah menjadikan perasaan kamu seperti tiada kepentingan. Ini bermakna kamurang tiada keyakinan diri.. ouh, itu memang tidak patut sekali.

~ Setiap orang mempunyai respon berlainan, tidak semua sama.. Tak semestinya pihak sebelah tu akan bagi respon negatif Titik Noktah The end Sadaq Allahul'azim... Tapi kalau kamu main tarik tali, kira macam jual mahal skit la, ini hanya akan menampakkan yang kamu kurang berminat. (kemungkinan yang kamu akan terima, kalau iya pun la pihak yang sebelah tu tidak merasa tertarik dengan kamu, tapi sekurang-kurangnya diorang akan tertanya2 tentang perhatian yang kamurang beri.)

2) Stop being needy

Bila kamu "gila2" tertarik ngan seseorang tu, memang sudah menjadi lumrah tuk mempunyai keinginan tuk menjalinkan hubungan dengan orang tu. Dan sedar atau tidak, kamu mungkin akan nampak sedikit terdesak.. orang bilang sangat 'attraction killer'. Bertindak tergesa-gesa secara emosi, dan fikiran kamu akan dikaburi pada masa ni dengan idea "in relationship", membuatkan semua nampak indah dan sempurna.

~ Slow down and relax. Jangan anggap ni la yang satu2nya tuk seumur hidup or it's now or never. Jangan terlalu paksa keadaan tu kalau ianya tidak mengikut seperti yang kamu hendakkan, just let it flow. Your demeanor should speak for itself.

3) Think about the difference between a friendship and a romantic relationship. 

Mungkin kamu ni jenis yang rasa hubungan harus bermula dari persahabatan kemudian diikuti dengan munculnya perasaan secara tarikan fizikal. Namun, tidak semua orang berpendapat sedemikian, orang yang kamu ingin tuk bersama tu mungin berfikiran sebaliknya.. kebanyakan melalui pandangan secara psikologi, dalam perhubungan ni jarang yang bermula dari hubungan persahabatan yang akrab. Kebiasaan orang tertentu ni, dia mencari 'romantic partner' yang mampu memainkan peranan lebih dari seorang rakan. 

~ Cari tahu mengenai orang yang kamurang mahu tu, apa yang diingininya daripada seorang kekasih. Kalau orang tu sentiasa terlibat ngan hubungan yang negatif (dimana dia selalu disakiti), walaupun selepas dengan nasihat kamu. so, kamurang harus faham, orang tu mempunyai isu tersendiri. Maka terpulang pada kamurang samada ingin setia menanti atau 'move on' sebab kadang2 orang yang mempunyai isu ni tidak akan nampak apa yang ada didepan matanya, secara kejamnya dia tidak akan perasan kehadiran kamu disisinya sebagai benda yang penting.

4) Break the touch barrier

Ok, salah satu cara membezakan antara persahabatan dan hubungan ialah cara mereka bersentuhan atau buat 'skin contact'. Feel antara kedua2 tu memang berbeza. Tapi, kalau kamurang ni jenis segan tuk sentuh or buat 'skin contact'.. just try la tuk buat 'touch risk' tidak perlu bersentuhan kulit, cukup bahu atau mana2 yang berlapiskan kain baju. Kalau orang tu tidak suka, dia pasti akan beri signal awal atau respon. Kaedah ni penting untuk kamurang tahu samada orang tu juga merasakan debaran yang sama. Dalam masa yang sama akan membuatkan kamu merasa lebih berkeyakinan.

~ note: ada sesetengah orang mungkin berfikiran agak terbuka dan merasakan bahawa itu hanya sentuhan sahabat semata-mata. So jangan terlalu buruh2 tuk telan bulat-bulat, hadam dulu dengan baik.

5) Realize that you're "tying up" your feelings by staying friends with someone who isn't romantically interested in you.

Andai kata lah, kamu suda praktikkan semua langkah2 diatas nih dan kamu suda 'step up' dalam menampakkan kesungguhan tuk membawa hubungan persahabatan tu up to the next level tapi, orang tu tetap juga ingin tuk kekalkan persahabatan. Maka, kamu haruslah buat keputusan.. apa2 pun alasannya untuk tidak tertarik kepada kamu atas sebab-sebab yang kamu sendiri tidak akan faham. Tapi tapi tapi... walaupun begitu kamu tetap jugak masih menyimpan perasaan terhadap orang tu... ok fikirkan tentang ni:

~Kata lah, kamu susah tuk memupuk perasaan terhadap orang lain kecuali orang tu lebih-lebih lagi bila perasaan kamu sentiasa berkembang bila keluar 'hang out' ngan orang tu. Kamu akan sentiasa berdepan dengan perasaan cemburu dan kecewa bila orang tu keluar ngan orang lain. Sekalipun kamurang berjaya memupuk perasaan terhadap orang lain, tapi hati kamu akan sentiasa sakit dan keliru, agak payah tuk berdepan ngan perasaan yang suda terbahagi.

~ kadang2, jalan yang terbaik adalah tuk kekalkan hubungan persahabatan tu hanya seperti kenalan biasa. Mungkin orang tu akan rasa tersinggung namun cuba fahamkan mereka bahawa kamurang tidak dapat mengawal perasaan kamu terhadap mereka sebagaimana mereka tidak dapat mengawal perasaan tuk terima kamu. Kamu perlu beri ruang dalam hidup dan hati kamurang untuk orang yang juga mempunyai perasaan terhadap kamu sebagaimana kamu menyimpan perasaan terhadap mereka.

p/s: Walaupun situasi setiap orang berbeza-beza, namun secara asasnya begitu lah ceritanya. 
Kepada yang ingin keluar dari kepompong 'friendzone', sila-sila la cuba.. tapi jangan lah letak harapan terlalu tinggi. Take it slow, banyak lagi benda di dunia ni kita kena explore, so many things to see and so many people to meet. Perluaskan jajahan minda anda Jyeah!!!

Jantung Hampir Jatuh

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Hari sabtu kemarin, macam biasa nggak betah duduk dirumah ya makanya jalan2 dong.. hari remaja pla tu..huhu
Awal pagi tu aku p amik roadtax kereta d terminal inanam ( kena kirim dari tawau), on the way balik tu singgah2 kunun di 1b (1borneo hypermall) mo cari tudung tp teda hasil.. lepak2 la aku sendiri di bangku 1b.. Duduk2 sambil observe orang, melihat pasangan sejoli berkasih sayang KiriKananDepanBelakang ku lama2 membuatkan aku rasa macam looser la plak, agak sedikit pathethic bila menyedari yang aku duduk sorang2 situ tengok2 orang macam palui.. maka dengan itu terus tringat mo sound c "bff" Ariez .. kesian dia rupa2nya kelaparan dirumah xdapat masak sebab habis gas..hahah!

Went to fetch him trus direct p cp, mo kawankan dia gunting rambut kunuk, gerebo macam abgnya c budi bilangnya.. ekeke
Member lain ajak lepak, so sementara tunggu dorang turun kk kami ni pun round2 satu cp tu sampai bosan, pusing2 btembung ja ngan orang yg sama..

Akhirnya member sound jumpa dekat anjung senja (sib bek tempat lain, mo juling suda asyik tengok budak2 cp ja dari tadi) so we went to the car park to get the car la..
Disini la kisahnya bermula, kami naik tingkat 4 to get the car.. tinguk2 teda kereta, hilang, cam magic hilang tiba2..WTF! satu carpark la kami round mencari, xjugak jumpa2..
macam mo jatuh jantung ku..macam2 suda ku fikir time tu ow..barang paling penting aku risau tu buku2 safety ku..warghh!! nyawa aku tueeeeeeee~...gillakkk eh

Terserempak ngan security guard d situ, ngam, p la kami report..
So this is the messed up part, security tu cakap kejadian begini biasa berlaku.. selalu orang buat report kereta hilang ditingkat 4... tapi sebenarnya diorang salah tingkat, diorang parking tu actually tingkat 5..
So dengan harapan yang tinggi sambil membaca2 segala ayat suci didalam hati, kami p cek la tingkat 5..
Tadaaaaa!!! tuuu na ninja turtle sya safely diam2 parked well di satu sudut..
Aku pun dengan hati yang gila lega terus berlari kearahnya lalu ku peluk c hijau tu, aku sayang2 dia.. lupa jgk aku sujud syukur disitu kn.. Wuuu, nda akan ku pernah tinggalkan dirimu sorang2 lg.. wuuu

okayyyyy~.. hati gumbira dan lega, heeeee sambung lepak tempat lain lageyyy~..


p/s: Pengajaran.. jangan over gabra n panic bila berlaku kejadian sebegini.. banyak kemungkinan boleh berlaku..atau dengan kata lain, kesilapan atas kebuduhan diri sendiri biasa berlaku.. bikin malu!!

Hello.. I'm a Safety Officaaaaa~...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Aku ni sebenarnya bukan xda idea, banyak suda topik aku mau share disini.. cumanya mo buat ayat tu agak payah skit, jadinya gantung la cerita tersebut.. berlambak draft ku belum kena post2 lg ney, bukan pa..awal2 masa mau start tulis tu bukan main idea segala ayat datang mencurah2 ke ladang gandum..skiiit lg puff menjadi cococrunch, tiba2 'hang' otak ku..tetttttttt~...

Well u'ols kan dah tau aku dah selesai menamatkan study.. *aiseh u'olls gitew~..semakin hari semakin gedik diri ini i know~..ngeh3
So sementara menunggu saat kegembiraan melempar topi graduat tu jauh2..*well it's because throwing it tinggi2 is so mainstream.. Pada saat ini aku mengada2 ingin kembali belajar, tapi kali ni buka buku undang2 la pulak.. Wekkk, 8hari suda ikut tu kursus mo muntah suda menghadam ilmu undang2 keselamatan ni.

Kitab baru kegemaranku.. erkkk~..

Meh sini aku ceritakan sikit pasal kursus ni.. It's an Occupational Safety and Health (OSH) course programme for Safety and Health Officaaaa~.. *loving the word 'officaaaa~' heheh!
Kursus ni ambil masa 22hari exclude exam. 'Fees'nya RMxxxx ehem2, kalau mau tau sila PM aku..huhu

Lepas ni belum lagi boleh jadi officer actually.. kena kumpul 1year experience in construction safety baru boleh dapat yellow book (kira mcm qualification pass la) or 3years experience in any safety job (dapat green book). So aku ni kesuntukan masa, mesti mau cepat2 kumpul experience!!
Hurmm, first2 tu ingat cam senang ja jadi safety officaa ni.. tp rupanya banyak kerja plus tanggungjawab.. perghh~.. tapi apa2 pun aku yakin dengan jalan yang aku pilih. Aku NEKAD!! hahaaa..over plak

Otak penuh dengan akta dan undang2  keselamatan. Pintar anak ni nda lama

p/s: Kadang2 pandai terover aplikasi pla aku, using the safety term like a boss.. malar semua pun 'hazard'.. kin panas jua aku sendiri mendengar..puii~..

Awesome Female Characters... SALUTE!!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Kali ini aku ingin membawa kamurg ke alam fantasi.. ceh, fantasi la sangat~.. ngeh3!!

Banyak2 watak dalam movie or apa2 la bentuk hiburan, mesti ada satu watak yang menarik minat kita, ataupun yang memberi kesan yang mendalam la pada kita..

Aku ni suka menghayati watak tertentu dalam sesuatu cerita didepan mata ku.. not just cerita dia, but the whole character, every bits dari segi gesture, facial expression, dialog..everything..

kita sekarang ni bercerita tentang watak perempuan ( Female Character) ya tuan2&puan2...

Setakat ni ada 3 watak yang betul2 melekat di kepala hotak ku, yang buat aku terbayang2 as if i was her..thinking what if it was me, what if i was her!! 

So..we start with...

The 3rd:

Memperkenalkan... Alice...Alice is the protagonist of the Resident Evil film series. She was based on the strong women with a superhuman ability and supremely efficient killing machine and bio-weapon. One thing i like about her character is she's mysterious. 

She's confused but still she knows what she has to do. She looks like she doesn't care a lot but at the same time risking her life just to save others.

Alice of 'Resident Evil'

The 2nd:

Eva Ham dari buku manga GEMPAK 'Fatal Chaos'. I like how she is a fighter, she's good with sword.. her character is more of a aggressive type.

Eva Ham of 'Fatal Chaos' manga

The 1st:

Katniss Everdeen from a film called 'Hunger Game'. Of all the character, i like her the most!! 

She's independent survivalist, has a strong will, charismatic, brave and innocent. She's cold but still likable, that's what i loved about her. All her life she's been struggling to take care of her family after her father's death. she's grown to be solid and tough on the outside, but inside she's pure as driven snow. 

Katniss Everdeen of Hunger Game

P/S: Aku paling sarankan kamurg tengok cerita 'Hunger Game' nih.. memang cool tersangat cool!! Movie ni memang best, tapi lagi best baca novelnya serius aku xpandai menipu.. cerita nih ada 3sequels. Movie WAJIB tengok or novel WAJIB baca!! okbai