Rocking Sunday with Rock Climbing

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Waaaarghh.. aku sebenarnya teringin mo update entry ni. Tapi aku sendiri pun tak paham otak ni terlalu malas mo 'brain' words, yah, mengarang sangat la bukan hobiku-suda tau tapi masih jugak ada hati mo blogging kannnn... ciss!!

Ahad lalu-lalu..aku tak tau la berapa lama punya lalu kan. Me and si bebeh (jenn) went to rock climbing.

Wahh!! lama suda terniat mo try ni barang sebenarnya, baru la sekarang berkesempatan.. pergh..looser gila. 

So tempat ni adalah Sabah Indoor Climbing Centre (SICC) bertempat di Taman Cabaran Belia, Kompleks Sukan Likas, Kota Kinabalu Sabah.

Tempat ni tak la besar sangat tapi just nice la.. cukup2.. memang tak ternaik semua pun so tak payah kerek sangat yerr nak beso2-wall tinggi melangit bagai.. 

Anak dia takut mo turun sebab trauma dari sebelumnya.. tali dia terpusing.
So bapanya tengah berusaha tuk pujuk anak dia.
ni tourist dari france, ispiking french diatas tu.
rasa macam tengok french movie la pulak.. heheh!
Drama~ Drama~...

This is me!! (yang baju merah)

Si bebeh Jenn.. ok oo~..

Fulamak!! Paling favorite ni gambar..
macam spiderman pla ku rasa sini..ekeke

So bayarannya macam ni..

Pendaftaran+Belay = RM22

Tanpa Belay = RM17

What is belay??

Perhatikan gambar diatas.. orang yang pegang tali kita dekat bawah tu la 'belayer'.

pegang tu bukan suka2, ada caranya.. kena masuk belaying class dulu.. belajar cara ikat tali, tahan weight orang atas tu. 

P/S: Bah, apa lagi.. aktiviti ni sangat la syiuk, tapi sakit tangan la.. Marilah kita melasakkan diri!!

       Latersssss~..........

Al-fatihah Gramps.. Forever I love U!!!

Assalamualaikum wbt...


'September 13th 2013' One of the historical and memorial day for me and the whole family..
Al-Fatihah to gramps- 'Allahyarham Ahmad Ayid'

The saddest part is i wasn't there at his last breath. I got informed earlier by my brother that gramps is critical but i was at a meeting. I was thinking to finish my meeting first then go to the hospital. See these kind of thing already happened a lot and got us rushing there only to know that he's gonna be alright. So i thought this time it would be the same.

Just as i finished my meeting, i had to send my colleague back to the office. While I'm on the road, my brother keep calling me on the phone saying to come now-gramps is critical..

Calmly i drove... 2mins after, bro called again. This time i sense something weird, he talked a bit then he choked- he tried to speak but the words won't come out. Still i drove- holding my breath and hung up. All i can think of is i had to send off my colleague first. 1min after, bro calling in again.. still he choked and went silent-that's when i heard sounds of people crying and mourning.

My heart's pounding, i'm sweating, i lost my breath for few sec.. I couldn't speak, the words just stuck on my throat. All i remember saying that telling them to hold on, i'm coming..just hold on for a sec. That time, I wish i could tell gramps to hold on, wait for me-don't leave- but that just my heart saying.

I would try to be strong and tough but the tears kept on running down my cheeks. I figure that i can't break down, I'm gonna see him in just a mile away- I mean i had to hold on.. i just had to..

I arrived, finally.. with all the nerves and courage i step in the room. I could see everyone's crying.
And there was my gramps, lying on the bed-breathless... i couldn't dare to touched or try to speak to him, i just stood there *end of the bed* and i just watched him. With tears flowing down-I just watched..

We took the body back to hometown "tawau" and have him buried safely in our family cemetery that afternoon. Thank god that everything went smooth.

At gramp's grave

Raya 2010

With his naughty grandchild

Kundasang Trip with us

P/S: From the bottom of my heart, I love this man to death.. Forever I Love You gramps.. We felt your absence though we accepted the fact that you're no longer here. Allah knows best.. You'll remain in our hearts and soul. Alfatihah..may you rest in peace. Amiinnn~...

The Elevator Troll

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

For uol's info, i've been a nurse taking care of my gramps a.k.a Mr.Commander at the SMC hospital like almost every night having shifts with my bro n cuzzy. It's been for like a month now, well, gramps is on schedule medical so once in a while he will be admit to the hospital for quite a period.

Yesterday morning after i went off to work, gramps feels like he wants to have a wee, decides to walk by himself and end up his face on the floor, resulting his right leg bone to dislocated/fractured (Not quite sure yet).

Doctor have him checked every morning..
See, his leg is attached with 5kg weight to pull the bone back.. Poor gramps~..

Ok, so this is the real part..

Last night, i was in the hospital elevator on my way up to his room. With me in the elevator is another person, when he reach to his floor, he walks out.

Now you see, i was alone in the elevator. When suddenly i got this silly idea, so I pretended talking to someone when actually there's no one around, just to troll with the cctv.

Imagining their curious face all looking to each other, then tries to rewind the camera footage several times to make sure what's really happening and got all horrored. THAT would be funny..i giggled myself  thinking in my mind that time.

Having quite a serious conversation myself until it felt so real i started to have goosebumps.

Imagine when u're alone in a hospital elevator, it was as if someone's around and i can't believe i'm doing this crazy idea of mine. My eyes began scrolling to the elevator scale.. still haven't reach my floor yet. Then i silent myself facing the door, just the door.. i don't even dare to look back. Hoping that the door would open quick.

Finally..Finally i reached my floor, the door opens, i relief.. but once again my brain function abnormally.. i turn around, gave a strong nod some more and leave. Stepping out the elevator with my cold feet hoping and hopping that That someone wouldn't be following me.

But in the end, it's all good.. slept well, nothing horror happen so far.

Imagine if this happens, what would u do??
faint? stif? cry?  u wouldn't know the feeling until u feel it urself

p/s: #FactAboutMe : I have this reflex habit that always response against my instict. *aiseh trip twitter pla main hashtag segala.. heheh! Laters~...

Cara Mengorat Lelaki Pemalu..meow~

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Sifat Malu selalunya dikaitkan ngan perempuan, tapi zaman sekarang ni kebanyakan perempuan lebih terbuka dan sikit agresif, Fuiyooo!! Normalnya, lelaki yang macho suka perempuan yang sweet2 jek tapi macam mana la pulak ngan gadis agresif dan lasak? maka, disini  la peranan harus dimainkan oleh seorang..Lelaki Pemalu!! *hahahaa.. ok, itu memang xbetul.. 

Lelaki pemalu ni kan, dia ni jenis yang nda amik perhatian sangat ngan perempuan. Dia suka buat hal sendiri, tapi kalau sekali dia tertarik, anda lah satu2nya. Bukanlah berita baik sangat kalau lelaki pemalu tertarik ngan anda si gadis, sebab mereka ni susah untuk luahkan perasaan. 

Ok, so aku selaku gadis lasak dan agresif mengakui yang aku ni memang tertarik ngan lelaki lembut (bukan auww ok! just soft spoken) and pemalu. Oleh sebab lelaki pemalu ni adalah makhluk yang pemalu, si gadis haruslah pandai memikat si lelaki. Bukanlah suruh perigi cari timba, just try to approach that leads into making a sign and make a stand to be noticed. Namun begitu, caranya haruslah betul dan halusssss~ *pitching tinggi pada hujung sin...'s'..'s' *

Aku jumpa ni artikel, ingat mau share2 skit tentang..

Cara Memikat Hati Seorang Lelaki Pemalu.. boleh ba kan.. boleh ba kalau aku~..huhu

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1. Sensitif

Cara pertama untuk memikat hati jejaka pemalu adalah dengan bersikap lebih sensitif. Sesetengah lelaki sukakan wanita yang agresif, tapi untuk jejaka pemalu, si gadis perlu lebih peka terhadap perasaan si jejaka. Jika terlalu mendesak, kemungkinan anda hanya menakutkan si dia. Perlahan-lahan tonjolkan diri anda dan anda bakal mendapat respon yang baik.

2. Bersikap Comel Dan Manis

Cara lain untuk memikat si dia adalah dengan bersikap secomel mungkin. Cuba latih diri anda untuk bersikap pura-pura malu walaupun anda adalah seorang yang sangat terbuka. Sensasikan dirinya dengan kiriman coklat dan bunga dan cuba untuk tersenyum simpul di hadapannya. Percayalah, taktik ini benar-benar mujarab untuk memikat si dia yang pemalu.

3. Bersikap Ramah

Sesetengah lelaki menyukai gadis yang tidak terlalu ‘sweet’ ataupun peramah, namun untuk kategori lelaki pemalu, mereka sebenarnya mencari gadis yang boleh dijadikan rakan. Cuba lah bersikap ramah dan bercakap dengannya apa jua topik semasa. Dari situ, anda akan jumpa persamaan diri masing-masing.

4. Jangan Gelojoh

Ingat bahawa jejaka pemalu tidak sukakan gadis yang terlalu mendesak dan agresif. Perlahan-lahan mengambil hati mereka ya. Memang benar gadis perlu mengambil langkah pertama tapi selepas itu perlahankan langkah anda, jadikan ia lebih semulajadi.

5. Kenali Si Dia

Apa sebenarnya yang jejaka pemalu inginkan? Ia tidak lain adalah mempunyai gadis yang ingin mengenali jiwa mereka. Jika anda mahukan cara terbaik memikat mereka, mulakan dengan langkah pertama bertanyakan tentang pelajarannya, kerjaya, keluarga dan apa yang mereka sukai di masa lapang. Percayalah, mereka sangat menyukai gadis yang bertanyakan hal mereka walaupun mereka nampak malu pada permulaan bicara. Usik sedikit dirinya secara sopan, nescaya dia lebih sukakan diri anda.

6. Pujilah Si Dia

Semua lelaki sukakan pujian. Seperti mana wanita, semua jejaka gemarkan wanita yang menyukai dirinya memberikan pujian. Mulakan dengan pujian yang lebih mudah contohnya anda sukakan warna baju atau fesyen terbaru rambutnya. Untuk yang lebih berani, puji bentuk tubuhnya. Pujian adalah kunci kepada hati lelaki!

7. Lakukan Secara Lembut

Apabila anda berurusan dengan lelaki yang benar-benar malu, salah satu cara untuk memikat si dia adalah lakukan semua perkara dengan secara lembut. Jadilah gadis yang mudah didekati, sentuh hatinya secara lembut dan halus dengan membiarkan dia tahu bahawa anda suka dia!

8. Gerak Bahasa Tubuh

Perhatikan bahasa tubuhnya adakah si jejaka benar-benar bertindak balas dan suka dengan usaha anda selama memikat si dia. Adakah dia mula memikat anda kembali? Mata anda selalu bertentangan? Jika ya, inilah tanda si dia mula memberi ruang kepada anda. Jika tidak, anda harus cuba lagi ya!

9. Bersikap Kelakar

Bila anda cuba memikat si jejaka pemalu, pastikan anda mempunyai personaliti yang benar menarik hati si dia. Anda boleh menjadi seorang yang kelakar dan usiklah si dia asalkan tidak sampai memalukannya. Ini mungkin boleh melegakan ketegangan di dalam dirinya.

Memikat jejaka pemalu tidaklah semudah memikat jejaka kebanyakan. Anda mungkin mahu main sedikit sehingga permainan, samada menjadikan diri anda lebih mudah didekati atau mendekati dia! Jadi wanita, jika ada jejaka pemalu dalam fikiran anda yang anda minati sekian lama, ayuh lakukan sekarang!

kredit : Nota Hati

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 P/S: Tapi please please jangan terlalu agresif bila mendekati lelaki pemalu, ni akan buat diorang rasa takut dan akan mengelak anda wahai si gadis Nakal! hahaaa.. 

A Letter To You

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Dear Yung,

We met in an almost unexpected way, unexpected move from you in an unexpected time with that very very unexpected feelings.
My insecurity, my pride, my ego kept on pushing you away but instead, you never left.
Your patience, your persistence, your unconditionally love for me..
Accepting whatever i was, however i am, whoever i'd be..
Thank you for that.. i am very much thankful to god for giving me something this big.

But this is me after all.. i am incapable of love, to love, even to show love
I bring nothing but pain..

I'm sorry that i am such a damage and i'm messed up.
The fault is mine and i'm the mistake

If you ever read this..i just want you to know..
Remember what i said once before? i meant it, i still am..
I would be stupid to let you go,
But I'd be selfish of asking you to stay..

Find your happiness..

Happy 2nd Anniversary love.. supposely..



p/s: I'm sorry~..

Lesson learned!!

Assalamualaikum wbt

It's funny how we always hope that life would happen perfectly just like what we dreamed of even though we practically know that it doesn't, might even be totally opposites.

Greed..When we have all the thing in the world but we are so ungrateful that we start demanding more (thinking that you deserve more).

Confusion and Indenial.. confuse by what we feel, to feel or not to feel is something that we ourselves never have the power to fight nor to ignore.

Guilt.. afraid of hurting a heart but at the same time scare of losing.

SHE has been in a relationship that haunts her with all kinds of those.
She felt it but still she ignored her instinct at first thinking that it would be a good idea if she could at least give it a try.
What really happen is when we give a relationship too many reasons to start, then there's always too many reasons for it to end. Everything seems to be an excuses to consider even to judge.
SHE is someone that would questions everything..in her mind. The sounds of her ego shuts her from speak out her mind.

She is greed of his attention, greed of his care, greed of claiming what's hers.. but the problem seems to be she never requested it out, too proud to admit.
She's confused to what she really feels towards him, is it love? or is it just a sympathy..
Worst, always second thought of their status, whether to hold on or let it go
But the guilt.. either both ways will hurt him.

However, she knows she has to make a decision so she made it...

"Life is not cruel, we chose it to be"

A letter to him says:
'After all this time, you're still a best thing that ever happen to me.. i mean it'


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Creativity is an ART!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

ART!! can be anything.. lukisan, fesyen, perhiasan, etc..
Aku ni bukan lah tergolong dalam kalangan orang yang berseni.. itu aku akui. Tapi tiap kali aku lihat benda2 yang berseni ni aku akan jadi teruja.. melompat2 keterujaan? err, nda la kalik.
Yang buat aku nda puas hati kan, i could thing of a lot of creative things in my mind namun sebiji buah kurma pun aku nda mampu tuk terjemahkannya into something we called ART. Ihh!

Tapi apa pun aku try, aku try...
Ingin mengembangkan kekreatifan minda, maka kita biasakan la otak ni bekerja secara kreatif.

My first attempt.. simple ja kan..
boleh la kot.. just tuk hias2 brg2 atas meja.. klu ada masa la.

Haritu aku shopping la sikit2 brg tuk hias2 ni kan like shiny paper, marker, some fabric.. tp fabric ni agak susah jgk la mo cari, ada pun corak design dia sangat limited... well, i prefer unic design pattern ya know.
So ni starting2 ni, baru start enjin.. race minyak pun belum lg taw.. huhu
Kalau boleh, sekali ngan kereta n bilik tidur aku mo hias, i've pictured it in my mind (walaupun aku tau agak costy..sangat!!)  it's going to be lots of fun anyway!! ^^

Al-Fatihah my comrade..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Besides hari2 yg sangat busy beberapa minggu yang lepas ni di ofis, on 17th Feb, one of my office mate died in a car crash .. Innalillah~

I had a call that morning from my other office mate saying that 'arwah' just passed away that morning.. I was shocked and almost couldn't believe the news. Quickly i went on facebook and directly to his profile.. my heart beats and breaks a little when i saw all the condolence posts from his friends.. Yes, it was true, he died~...

We went to the forensic department as his body was taken for a Postmorterm. After a long wait we finally manage to see him for the one last time. It was tense..it was heart breaking.. it was all that, i feel like, how we  just met but we're already that close.. how everything was just fine the day before.. how i've listen to his sadness and also his life resolutions, there's so much he wanted to prove in his life to everyone and especially to the person that hurts him whom he loved so much.

Arwah Nickson Bin Ladja

Rest In Peace mate.. semoga arwah ditempatkan dikalangan orang yg beriman. Setiap yg hidup pasti akan mati, Inna lillah hi wa'inna ilahi rajiun (dari Allh kita datang, kepada Allah jua kita kembali)

Membuatkan aku berfikir sejenak. Kita xtau bila ajal kita, langsung, we'll never see it coming. So dengan kesempatan yg masih ada ni, sama2lah kita sentiasa bersedia.. YOLO, Ofcourse.. so don't waste it, do something good and useful to 'dunya' and 'jannah'.

p/s: For favor, whoever read this entry, sila sedekahkan Al-fatihah tuk arwah.. tq.

Terima Kasih Yang Maha Esa!!

Assalamualaikum wbt~..


heyho!!
Mungkin buat masa ni agak payah tuk aku update blog ni sejak aku sudah masuk ke alam pekerjaan ni. Well, I'm a career lady now ehem2.. heheh! So aku ni tengah belajar cope up dgn dunia ni. So many things to learn and seriously penatnya nda sama cam alam student dulu.
My life is merely dedicated to work. I mean, siang kerja whole day then malam berehat just tuk kerja esok hari.. I know we should have a balance between work and personal stuff. I do, but it's way tiring.. maybe i'm not used to it yet somehow, but i'm trying my best..err i think.

So sekarang ni genap la sebulan aku bekerja, bingung jugak la.. Bukan apa, since aku masih fresh grad ni kan maka banyak benda aku perlu belajar sampai xtau mana yang  mau start dulu.. ok i know, pelan2 org bilang, As-sobaru min al-iman (sabar itu separuh daripada iman) Wow, ustajah!!
But one thing i learned and hope that i can bare in mind is that, bila kita buat sesuatu kerja tu kena ikhlas. Despite how small the job that you might think it looks ridiculous, or even how hard the task is and it doesn't even pay off  like how you've expected it to be.. just know this, Allah pays you a lot more than human does in a way that you can never imagine nor even notice.
I am practicing myself...
* To be honest with every little thing i do
* To be patient in learning and even towards other people behavior
* To be responsible for the task i've been assigned to
* Not to nag when going through the difficulty
* Always be thankful to Allah with all the things i got even to the slightest thing in return
* To be tough and strong when dealing with any complications

I solemnly wish and i hope the best for my life.. harap2 la semua yang aku kerjakan dan lakukan memperoleh keberkatan dari Allah S.W.T sebab orang bilang bila kita buat sesuatu dengan ikhlas, rezeki kita ndakan pernah putus Insyaallah. Amiiiinnn~....

My first month salary.. apa perasaan? terkejut tiba2 ada duit banyak sekali masuk..
My own money!! weeeee~

p/s: Berusaha tuk menjadi hebat.. maju dan terus maju.. once i'm up, i never wanna come down!!

Life is sometimes a sweet movie scene..

Assalamualaikum wbt...

Like in the korean movies, the sweet scene always excites us..
I'm sure the ladies would agree that there's a time when we watch a movie then when a sweet scene came up and we all go 'aaaaaaaaa' with a high pitch sound. Did we.. DID WE?!
Well to the girls out there.. admit it. We all have those thoughts or imaginations that dreamed to live those sweet scenes just like in movies especially korean movies.. am i right??

Who says that a sweet and romantic scene only happens in movies and we can't have it in real life??
IT DOES!! believe me.. just that it seldomly happens or maybe only to the lucky ones..
However, each response is subjective depends on peoples view.. some girls get flattered by the sweetness,  but some girls are not even aware of the situation..na'a

Well whatever it is.. when i think about it, i have..yes, i actually have been flattered by some scene..
But it amused me how sucks my responses are.. i can be so ignorant and certainly obtuse when dealing with this kinds of situation.


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Here's some scenes that stuck in my head somehow..

# There's this time i went out with this guy, it was raining. We ran to the bustop for shelter and my bottom jeans got wet. I sat on the bench then he came.. he bent down on his knees and fold up my jeans up. Heee, i feel like a kid.

# I kinda like when someone pat my head.. (same age or older than me of course coz it would be disrespectful for a kid to pat). Well, there's a friend of mine like to pat my head. i would agree i'm kinda like a cat. ^_^

# We were walking under a hot sun, i was sweating excessively. My friend then wiped my sweat by using just his hands. I understand other people would probably disgust with someone else's sweat, I myself feels the same by my own sweat. it's surprising that he's ok with it.. That could be euwy, but he made it sweet.. heee

# We were sitting facing each other, i was busy analyzing photos from the camera. All of sudden i quickly glance up, he was staring at me deep with a very complicating look. But my reflex takes less than a second for me to glance back down, and so i did the poker face No Feeling AT ALL!!  (I think it should be sweet if   i can actually respond well to it) I am the Iron Man!! erkk~..

# One scene that i felt kinda sweet but more like funny when we meet secretly without my mom's knowledge. I was helping my mom with her store (shop), so i'm standing outside infront of the store while my mom's inside and that's when he came. He was at the next block and we were signaling each other afraid that my mom would notice. I rest on the wall, we were next to each other with the wall in between us and we were chatting quietly and trying hard not making it obvious. (psst~, i feel... CHOMEL~...heheh!)


Okay, i think that all be it. Well, it's the least i can remember so far..
That's just it, what? did you guys expect more?? then keep disappointing coz my life is all PG13.. that is all i got for ya bitchesssss~ (ehem excuse the expression)


p/s: Looking forward for another sweetest sinn scene..ait? ehehe...