A Letter To You

Assalamualaikum wbt..

Dear Yung,

We met in an almost unexpected way, unexpected move from you in an unexpected time with that very very unexpected feelings.
My insecurity, my pride, my ego kept on pushing you away but instead, you never left.
Your patience, your persistence, your unconditionally love for me..
Accepting whatever i was, however i am, whoever i'd be..
Thank you for that.. i am very much thankful to god for giving me something this big.

But this is me after all.. i am incapable of love, to love, even to show love
I bring nothing but pain..

I'm sorry that i am such a damage and i'm messed up.
The fault is mine and i'm the mistake

If you ever read this..i just want you to know..
Remember what i said once before? i meant it, i still am..
I would be stupid to let you go,
But I'd be selfish of asking you to stay..

Find your happiness..

Happy 2nd Anniversary love.. supposely..



p/s: I'm sorry~..

Lesson learned!!

Assalamualaikum wbt

It's funny how we always hope that life would happen perfectly just like what we dreamed of even though we practically know that it doesn't, might even be totally opposites.

Greed..When we have all the thing in the world but we are so ungrateful that we start demanding more (thinking that you deserve more).

Confusion and Indenial.. confuse by what we feel, to feel or not to feel is something that we ourselves never have the power to fight nor to ignore.

Guilt.. afraid of hurting a heart but at the same time scare of losing.

SHE has been in a relationship that haunts her with all kinds of those.
She felt it but still she ignored her instinct at first thinking that it would be a good idea if she could at least give it a try.
What really happen is when we give a relationship too many reasons to start, then there's always too many reasons for it to end. Everything seems to be an excuses to consider even to judge.
SHE is someone that would questions everything..in her mind. The sounds of her ego shuts her from speak out her mind.

She is greed of his attention, greed of his care, greed of claiming what's hers.. but the problem seems to be she never requested it out, too proud to admit.
She's confused to what she really feels towards him, is it love? or is it just a sympathy..
Worst, always second thought of their status, whether to hold on or let it go
But the guilt.. either both ways will hurt him.

However, she knows she has to make a decision so she made it...

"Life is not cruel, we chose it to be"

A letter to him says:
'After all this time, you're still a best thing that ever happen to me.. i mean it'


................................................................THE END..............................................................

Creativity is an ART!

Assalamualaikum wbt...

ART!! can be anything.. lukisan, fesyen, perhiasan, etc..
Aku ni bukan lah tergolong dalam kalangan orang yang berseni.. itu aku akui. Tapi tiap kali aku lihat benda2 yang berseni ni aku akan jadi teruja.. melompat2 keterujaan? err, nda la kalik.
Yang buat aku nda puas hati kan, i could thing of a lot of creative things in my mind namun sebiji buah kurma pun aku nda mampu tuk terjemahkannya into something we called ART. Ihh!

Tapi apa pun aku try, aku try...
Ingin mengembangkan kekreatifan minda, maka kita biasakan la otak ni bekerja secara kreatif.

My first attempt.. simple ja kan..
boleh la kot.. just tuk hias2 brg2 atas meja.. klu ada masa la.

Haritu aku shopping la sikit2 brg tuk hias2 ni kan like shiny paper, marker, some fabric.. tp fabric ni agak susah jgk la mo cari, ada pun corak design dia sangat limited... well, i prefer unic design pattern ya know.
So ni starting2 ni, baru start enjin.. race minyak pun belum lg taw.. huhu
Kalau boleh, sekali ngan kereta n bilik tidur aku mo hias, i've pictured it in my mind (walaupun aku tau agak costy..sangat!!)  it's going to be lots of fun anyway!! ^^